CHAPTER 89

assalamualaikum

thank you

CHAPTER 88

assalamualaikum

give me some time

give me some space

i need to be alone

CHAPTER 87

assalamualaikum

stop it

enough with all this 

i'm tired

i'm tired with this situation

it's only me that really work hard

to settle this problem

from now on

i don't want to do anything

i just want to keep my mouth shut

and just see what's going to happen

what do you think i am

you think i'm heartless

you think that i'm a toy

or what

i'm not mad

i'm just dissapointed

i feel sad with this situation

everybody have their limits

and i think 

i already reach my limit

CHAPTER 86

assalamualaikum

this song really make my depression gone

i really like this part :

and now when all is gone
there is nothing to say
and if you done with embarassing me
on your word
you can go ahead

tell them all i know now

shout it from the roof top

write it on the sky love

all we had is gone now

tell them i was happy

and my heart is broken

all my scars are open

tell them what i hoped would be

impossible, impossible

impossible, impossible

CHAPETER 85

CHAPTER 84

assalamualaikum

m2m-pretty boy 

i lie awake at night

see things in black and white

i only got you inside my mind

you know you have made me blind

i lie awake and pray

that you will look my way

i have all this longing in my heart

i knew it right from the start

oh my pretty prttey boy

i love you

like i never ever loved no one before you

pretty pretty boy you're mine

just tell me you love me too

oh my pretty pretty boy i need you

oh my pretty pretty boy i do

let me inside 

make me stay 

right beside you

i used to write your name

i'll put it in a frame

and sometimes i think i hear you call

right from my bedroom wall

you stay a little while

and touch me with your smile

and what can i say to make you mine

to reach out for you in time

CHAPTER 83

assalamualaikum

i miss you

dah lama tak minum

air je lah

jangan fikir lain pulak

hmmm

semalam dan hari ni

adalah hari yang sangat2 meletihkan 

mural,mural,mural,mural,mural,mural,mural

tak habis2 lagi

huh

penat larh, tapi tak pe minggu ni minggu last

hmmmmmmmmmm

minggu ni minggu yang paling2 meletihkan

tapi best jugak sebab

1. tak masuk kelas

2. dapat meluangkan masa degan kawan2 lama

3. melatih kemahiran mewarna

ada banyak lah, takkan nak tulis semua kot

ain ada satu masalah

tapi ain rasa ni bukan masalah ain

tapi ain nak jugak amik tahu

ain tak de buat apa2 masalah ngan orang tu

tapi orang tu macam menghukum orang lain di atas kedegilan orang lain

tapi orang tu macam suka sangat jaga tepi kain orang

tapi janganlah sampai menghukum orang lain yang tak buat masalah

ni dengan orang lain pon kene

macam mana

 

hmmmmm

tak suka lah macam ni

CHAPTER 82

assalamualaikum

tadi time kat sekolah ain mengantuk tahap kritikal

masa budak2 buat oral bm 

ain tido, then kepala jadi pening 

nasib baik masa mathematics dah ok sikit

kesian ibu

ibu sakit

demam flu

hari ni memang ain sangat2 keletihan

tiba2

ain jadi sebak

bila teringat kenangan lampau

memang kebanyakkan kenangan lampau memberi impak yang besar dalam hidup kita

kan bagus kalau ain boleh mengawal masa

ain nak all my best friend to be with me

ain nak kelas 3c1

ain nak

tapi ain tahu semua tu mustahil

be positive ain

past is past

let the past be your guide

so that you will not make the same mistakes

that is all about

no matter what happen you have to continued your life

perjalanan masih jauh lagi

jangan berputus asa di tengah jalan

tabahkan hati

dan terus mengharungi liku2 hidup ini

insyaallah

CHAPTER 81

assalamualaikum

hahaha, happy nye

because my parents tak jadi pergi singapore

hehehe

then ain ajak ayah pergi shopping

like this

"ayah hari ni kan hari ahad, apa kata kita pergi MINI KELANTAN, kita jalan2, nak3??"

then ayah cakap, ok

hahaha

tapi pergi petang

oklah at least pergi jugak kan

ain nak bodek ayah belikan telekung and baju

ain nak jugak

and ain nak repair phone yang sony erricson w550i

pusing dye dah longgar

ingat tak kan dia kene pusing

like this

hmm, tu jewkot yang ain nak

ha!!

lagi satu

nak tukar cover dye

tu jewk, hehe

CHAPTER 80

assalamualaikum

kenapa hampir semua status tulis pasal BOLA??

relax ar

cedyh

because tomorrow i can't follow my parents go to singapore

T.T

i have to stay at home

:(

ain nak duduk kat rumah??

macam pelik jewk bunyi nye

what to do

i just have to follow their order

CHAPTER 79

assalamualaikum

hmmm.

just came back from mcd at perling mall

tadi ain pergi rumah fara

ain bawak laptop skali

then, kat sana kitaorang tgk dvd

cerita

KONGSI

&

KARAK

walaupun dah tengok 

tapi masa tangok karak tu

ain still menjerit

like this

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was shock larh

at mc d

nothing much

sempat online jap

sementara tunggu ibu sampai

ain pergi sebab kene tunggu ibu balik kerja

memang agak membosankan

what to do

luckily i have my laptop with me

hilang sikit rasa bosan tu

CHAPTER 78

assalamualaikum

i'm really tired

really2 tired

just came back

i will do anything for my love one

i will do anything to make them happy

kita ibarat tangan dan mata

disaat tangan terluka tangan menangis 

disaat mata menangis tangan menghapuskan

maybe i can feel what you feel

i will be so sad when i see you in trouble

i will cry when i see you upset

CHAPTER 77

assalamualaikum

so far so good

nothing much

but still 

i'm still felt sad when i see my friend have problem

hmmmm

and you

you still "MERAJUK"

with me??

i'm sorry larh

tadi, got something to do

ain masuk kelas 1/2 hari

ok lah tu 

masuk jugak kan

sebenarnya macam malas nak masuk

BUT

i know that someone need me at school

CHAPTER 76

assalamualaikum

afiqah don't leave me

please

i begging you

kenapa satu per satu bende yang aku sayang pergi meninggalkan aku??

kenapa??

sampai hati kau nak pergi tinggalkan aku

T.T

CHAPTER 75

assalamualaikum

sorry hari tu ain deactivated facebook jap

sebab ada masalah teknikal sikit

and something happen to me 

still the same

i don't know what to say

but i always know that Allah still with me

and now 

i just came back from school

ada tusyen pukol 4 sampai 6

kat rumah cikgu maryam

then maybe i will go somewhere

okay really need to 

bye

CHAPTER 74

assalamualaikum

i have change my desk cover

then i "conteng" it

hahaha, apa punye ayat larh

nak tahu tak tadi kat sekolah

time add math ada latihan kebakaran

mula2 excited tau, lama2 hampeh

sebab kitaorang kene berkumpul kat padang pukol 11

PANAS!!!

terbakar muka

biaselah muka ain kan sensitive kat cahaya matahari

so jadi merah membara

then masuk kelas balik

sambung belajar seperti biase

masa time biology memang mata tak boleh nak angkat

ngantok, so ain habiskan 1 masa bio dengan tidur

sorry cikgu, lain kali ain tak buat lagi 

ok?

then masa balik,

ingat nak balik awal

tapi kesian kat mek afiqah dok sorang2

ain teman lah

sampai pukol 3, then baru balik

dalam bas terserempak ngan seorang kakak ni

ain memang tak kenal pon

tapi dia berbual an, layan jelah

dia cerita pasal agama, sosial

ada jugak lah part yang ain terasa

SOALAN

kenapa lah ain jadi keras hati sangat?

kenapa ain degil?

kenapa ain nak orang dengar cakap ain jewk?

kenapa ain selalu nak menang kalau ada perbalahan?

kenapa ain selfish?

kenapa ain pendendam?

kenapa ain selalu obses ngan sesuatu masalah?

kenapa ain suka membalas perbuatan orang?

kenapa ain cepat marah?

JAWAPAN

ntah, mana ain tahu
tapi tak dengan semua orang larh
ada certain people yang ain dengar
so ain tak delah nakal sangat

tapi kalau korang tahu kenapa

text ain tau di number

0177******

CHAPTER 73

assalamualaikum

who did this??

who??

why you did this to me??

you're not satisfied with me??

why, you guys love to make me hurt is it??

have i done wrong to you??

CHAPTER 72

assalamualaikum

don't you dare to challenge me

don't underestimate the things that i will do

CHAPTER 71

assalamualaikum

don't underestimate the things that i will do

it's look like i have to choose my own path

i have to make my own decision

i have to do what best for me

i want to be perfect for everyone

but if i the only one who try the hardest,

it will never change anything

when i let go of what i am, i become what i might be

a friend is one takes me for what i am

CHAPTER 70

assalamualaikum

why i like to make things complicated??

NUR'AIN MOHAMED SALEH is ***** girl

ego

selfish

stubborn

want always right

you need to change NUR'AIN MOHAMED SALLEH

if you still with you bad behavior

you will lose everything

i know i must change,

yeah i must to be a better person

CHAPTER 69

assalamualaikum

kenapa saya menjadi manusia yang agak ketidakperi kemanusiaan

kenapa saya menjadi seorang yang sangat mementingkan diri sendiri

astaghfirullah

ya Allah ampunkanlah dosa-dosa hambamu ini

kenapa saya terlalu ego

Alleh telah menentukan perjalanan hidup kita

tapi kenapa saya suka menyalahkan takdir

kenapa saya tak redha

terlalu banyak dosa saya

ampunilah dosa-dosa hambamu yang kerdil ini

saya sedar kesilapan saya

saya sedang mencuba untuk menjadi yang terbaik

bantulah saya

berilah bimbingan kepada saya

supaya saya boleh jadi yang terbaik untuk semua

amin

CHAPTER 68

assalamualaikum

i'm totally exhausted

okay, i admit that i always like to blame myself

because i don't know what to do

maybe i can't totally understand the real situation

but i already try my hardest to understand it

i already try

what about mine?

did you all try to understand me?

did you all know what really i want?

i don't think so

maybe because i'm 'adik' 

i was so pampered 

my parents give every thing that i want

maybe, because of that i always like to win and stubborn 

 at home nobody understand me

no body care about me

how can i go home if the situation like that

i like to go to the park

because

at there i can see 'happy family'

i can see the love between parents and their children

just that

not because i like to 'merayap'

i like to see their parents spent time with thier kids

what about mine?

they always busy with their work

about the status

it's for my family

they act like they care about me

but the truth is they're not

they just ask

' pergi mana tadi? '

then they just ignore  

i can say that because

when i'm sick

my mom didn't take a leave 

but when my first brother sick

she will take leave until my brother totally cure

that's why i don't like to go back home

not because i stubborn 

CHAPTER 67

assalamualaikum

why you all was so worried if i want to go to the park??

why you all was so care about me??

is it because you all love me??

thank you, if it's true.

so that's mean 

if others don't worried about my dangerous idea,

they dosen't care about me,

they dosen't love me,

is that so??

so that's mean.......

okay now i understand,

what is the meaning of love and care.

don't pretend that you were care about others, just because you sympathize with them 

never cry about something that once made you smile, because at that time it was exactly what you wanted

CHAPTER 66

assalamualaikum

i try to do the best,

but every human in this world has their own weakness,

we can't expect what we want have to be fulfill,

maybe you all think that i don't have any problem,

because i seems happy-go-lucky at school,

but the truth is,

i have so many things to think about and to solve it,

i feel so exhausted to face all the problems,

it never end.

i just hope that god will help me to face all the problem,

i'm sorry if you all think that i'm not good enough for you,

every single person in this world have their own weakness,

nobody perfect in this world.

CHAPTER 65

assalamualaikum

hari ni saya tak pergi mural,

penat lah,

dah lah malam ni saya tusyen dai pukol 8 sampai 10,

so saya amik keputusan untuk berehat di rumah sahaja,

selain itu saya juga kene basuh baju dan sapu bilik

memang penat sangat  hari ni,

tadi saya balik lapar2, ingat ibu masak.

rupa2 nya ibu tak masak,

hmmm, takpelah dah nasib.

CHAPTER 64

assalamualaikum

penattttt!!!!!!!!!!

aku baru sampai rumah, mulai sekarang aku habis cat pukul 5, hari jumaat pon ada

tak pe lah tolong menolong kan,

lain kali kalau dah sakit terus makan ubat ye,

jangan degil,

nenek yang dah tua pon kene makan ubat,

tapi tadi muke cute lah, hahaha

sebab tu ain ketawa,

jangan mara tau,

sorry.

ibu!!

thankx sebab serahkan laptop and handphone ain balik,

sayang ibu!!!

walaupun tak boleh online selalu.

wey sedap siot tadi makan kfc,

thankx korang!!

sayang korang, haha, yang pompuan jewk,

aiyoo, lepas ni kene warna lukisan batik,

essay and summary english,

banyaknye!!!

banyak ke??, hahah

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..............................................

CHAPTER 63

assalamualaikum

ain ke yang sombong??

hahaha, tadi muke tak ley bla, asal muka macam terperanjat, nampak hantu ekh??

hahahaha, don't worry lah ain tak makan orang

thankx afiqah teman aku makan kat chungky,

wey korang , cikgu seni ckp kalau aku free aku kene tolong cat, aku on je, hahaha

pastu mungkin cikgu cakap, cikgu nak masukkan nama aku, cewah, haha

tadi aku balik pukol 5,

jangan risau aku dah settle kan kerje korang,

jalan raya semua aku dah touch up, cuma tinggal lagi sikit jewk

and aku dah boleh online, tapi tak boleh selalu lah.

ok lah jugak kan,at least boleh.

and handphone aku, aku dah dapat balik

yahoo!!!!!, hahaha

CHAPTER 62

assalamualaikum

maybe this is the last post for this week,

when i came back from school just now, someone text me

i don't know her/him

the way she/he text me, make me felt uneasy

she/he says:

DON'T EVER GIVE UP IF YOU STILL WANT TO TRY,

DON'T EVER WIPE YOU TEARS IF YOU STILL WANT TO CRY,

DON'T EVER SETTLE FOR AN ANSWER IF YOU STILL WANT TO KNOW,

DON'T EVER SAY YOU DON'T LOVE HIM IF STILL CAN'T LET HIM GO.

it's the same text that give to my sister,

what does she/he mean,

did she/he try to tell me that don't ever lie to my self ??

but how does she/he know about my feelings and what has happend to me?

does she/he know the boy that i always wrote at my blog??

but how she/he know about it??

only my best friends know what has happen to me

but the way she/he text me like she/he don't want me to give up,

she/he want me to always try and try and never give up

did i know she/he??

CHAPTER 61

we may easily forget the people with whom we laughed and enjoyed

BUT

we can't forget those people with whom we cried and shared our feelings 

CHAPTER 60

assalmualaikum

sorry abang, adik bukannya nak jadi kuang ajar ngan abang, adik cuma tak suka orang paksa adik buat bende yang adik tak suka, abang pon tak suka kan kalau orang paksa abang buat bende yang abang tak suka.

bande yang abang suruh adik buat dah keterlaluan untuk adik lakukan, adik tak suka dipaksa,

adik harap abang faham kehenak adik.

tadi aku ikut ibu pergi pasar bestmart, rupa-rupanya wujud jugak ayam warna hitam kan, baru aku tahu, hahahaha

apalah agaknye rasa ayam warna hitam tu kan, yang membuatkan aku tertanye-tanya adalah, 

macam ana ayam tu boleh jadi warna hitam?? pelik aku, hahaha, pastu aku terjumpe ikan buntal yang telah dikeraskan, tajam jugak duri dia, ish3, kuasa Allah kan

di tempat aku semakin mendung, guruh pon dah berbunyi, baju sekolah belom basuh lagi, kasut sekolah pon belom basuh, bilik belom mop, bilik belom vacum, baju2 belom basuh, buku belom kemas

banyak nye kerje, biaselah perempuankan, kalau lelaki senang, semua mak buat kan

CHAPTER 59

assalamualaikum

saat aku lena dalam tidur ku, tiba2 bunyi azan berkumandang, alarm aku lah, time untuk solat subuh, aku mengatur langkah ke suis lampu dan membukanye, aku mencapai tuala di penyidai, dan tros masuk ke dalam bilik air untuk membersihkan diri, kemudian aku menunaikan kewajipan sebagai seorang muslimah.

setelah selesai menunaikan solat, aku kembali ke tempat ku beradu, dan aku cuba untuk melelapkan mata, alhamdulillah aku berajaya melelapkan mata aku, tapi tidak selena malam semalam

apabila jam menunujukkan tepat pukul 9, aku dengan malasnye mengatur langkah, sekali lagi aku mengatur langkah tetapi kali ini bukan untuk membuka lampu, tapi untuk menghidpka suis laptop, hahaha, sengalkan, lek ar, hujung minggu jewk aku boleh online.

mak ai!! ayat aku tak leh bla seh , hahahahahahahahaha

CHAPTER 58

semua orang sibuk tanye rumah aku kan,
meh aku terangkan ye....
rumah aku exclusive sikit, hahaha

first, nampa ni, old town white coffee

pastu nmpk tak kete viva kt old town tu, hmmm, kete korang kene sama position ngan viva tu, pas2 straight jewk, then korang akan jumpe ni,

book talk

hmm, dah btol ar tu, nmpk lorang tu kan, masok lorang tu,macam ni

pastu nmpk van kat workshop tu kan,good, dh dekat lah ni
paking kete sbelah van,macam ni,

dah parking, hmm, bgos2, pas2

nmpak tak rumah yang ada towel colour pink tu,
ha!! tu lah rumah aku
senang kan

jeng3...ni lah rumah aku..:)

wah boleh jadi ahli geografi ni, pandai buat peta, hahah
kalau korang tak jumpe gak tak tahulah nak ckp ap

CHAPTER 57

assalamualaikum

thankx korang sebab jadi kawan yang sgt memahami
thankx korang sebab memahami situasi sebenar
thankx korang sebab membuang segala prasangka buruk tu
macam ni lah kawan aku, sayanggg korang

aku tahu korag mesti suka bila tengok aku happy kan, aku tengah happy lah ni, hahahaah

lapar!!!!!!!!
ibu tak masak.... :(
maggi pon tak de

CHAPTER 56

assalamualaikum

i try my hardest to make you all happy,
i try my hardest to make you all smile,
i try my hardest to make you all laugh,

BUT
why you all didn't try your hardest to make me happy?
why you all didn't try your hardest to make me smile?
why you all didn't try your hardest to make me laugh?

mungkin kerana pemikiran setiap manusia tidak sama,
seperti kewujudan cap jari, Allah mencipta corak cap jari yang berlainan,

i try my hardest to make this misunderstanding to be crystal clear, and alhamdulillah i succeed
i hope you will not make the wrong decision again
good luck for your examination, i will always pray for you
thank you, because you didn't broke you promise towards me, i really appreciate it

CHAPTER 55

assalamualaikum

tadi masa kat sekolah aku, selsema + sakit perut + demam + pening + batuk
aku tak tahu kenapa lepas rehat aku jadi sensitive sangat2, sampai kwn aku ckp ngan aku tapi menggunakan ton suara yang tinggi pon, boleh membuat aku menangis, keadaan menjadi lebih parah setibanya waktu chemistry, aku tak dapat membendung air mata aku, pastu masa balik sekolah aku terus masok bilik dan tidur, tapi abang aku yang sham tu mengamuk tak tentu pasal, keadaan ini membuatkan aku membuat keputusan untuk keluar dari rumah, aku tak tahu apa yang ada dalam kepala otak aku, aku cuma perlukan seseorang untuk mendengar tu jewk, dalam sekelip mata bas pun tiba, aku terus naik bas dan jumpe imane di rumah fara, sorry imane menyusahkan kau jewk..


FOR YOU,
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
please forgive me

rasa serba salah sangat, sorry


aku dah dapat handphone and laptop aku balik, tapi kena pulangkan hari ahad.
tapi handphone aku tak de kedit,
aku dapat awal pon sebab aku merayu kat ibu aku
thankx ibu.

CHAPTER 54

assalamualaikum

aku               kenapa         kenapa          why                sedangkan
tak                ngan             mata             am                 kau
tahu              aku               aku                i                     dah
kenapa          ni                 berair            still                  tak
ngan                                                      thinking            kisah
aku                                                        about              pasal
malam                                                    you                 aku
ni                                                                                  lagi

CHAPTER 53

assalamualaikum

aku sakit bila menatap matamu, sedarku bahwa engkau bukan milikku,
aku sakit mengagumi mu, sedarku kau tak pernah mengagumi ku,
bangunkan aku dari tidur panjang ku, sedarkan aku dari mimpi tentangmu,
ku salah bila ku berharap padamu,
salahku paksa kau untuk mengagumi ku,
kau tak tahu perasaan ku, dan ku tak mahu kau tahu,
aku sakit jika kau tahu hatiku, kerna diriku tak bererti buat mu,
aku sakit, bilakah kau sembuhkan aku?
tak mungkin, sungguh tidak mungkin

CHAPTER 52

assalamualaikum

penat seh, just came back from school.
tadi ada larian 1 murid 1 sukan, ingatkan nak lari jauh, rupanya keliling sekolah jewk, hmm, hampeh,
then seperti biase aktiviti aku, merayap lah, with my friends,


and.   .   .   .   .   .   .  .

aku nampak dia
you look happy, :)

CHAPTER 51